Went to work. First day with no Justin... who I don't really miss after a REALLY screwed up dream last night... ew... anyway.

I was working in the board room and see... board room rules are usually whoevers in there first gets to pick the station and everyone else has to deal. Thusly why I know so many oldies songs and have heard Becky Holly bitch about "new music crap" for hours on end while swearing shes "forever a 50's girl." yeah whatever. Anyway, this guy comes in and I was there first. Thusly by the usual rules I have radio control. And he was all "will it bother you if I'm in here." and I was like "No not at all," and so he sits down 10 seconds later stands up and is like "I'm going to turn that off." and he goes over to the radio. It took a lot of restraint to keep from throwing my empty nector of the gods bottle at him. I was here first as was enjoying the lack of Becky and the ability to have the radio at just the right volume. Anyway, the guy goes to turn it off but can't figure it out. So instead of asking the lowly part time helper who was the one who turned it on in the first place he just unplugs it. I dunno, everyone who doesn't know me at the office or who works up front thinks I'm an idiot because I'm a teenager. It makes me mad.

Like, say that day when Becky Holley like tag teamed up with this old guy who was doing Mirabitos taxes. And they decided to teach me a few things about life, and unlike Jill and her unending but loveable rants they went on about how death is coming for me. But I don't know anything about death and I probably don't even think about it because I'm too young. I just wanted to tell them to shut the hell up. These people don't know me. I don't claim to be smart but for chrissakes with half the shit I've been through I think I deserve to be treated like more than a child. Gah, I get so angry I'm sorry I'll stop my I'm a teenager and I think I know everything rants.

So I went to lunch and got my schedule WOOT! But its screwed up so I have to go get it changed tomorrow... *not wooting*

Then I came back and went to work in my favoritist room with Stacie and Jill and they all had taco bell. It was like some unending nightmare. Aside from the wierd justin dream I had an Adam dream and in the Adam dream we went to taco bell and I ordered a lovely lovely taco and before I could eat it I woke up. I woke up at 4:30 in the morning wanting not only Adam but a taco with sour cream and lotsa cheese... *drool* Infact, the taco voided out the Adam thoughts and there I was at 4:30 in the morning trying to figure out how I could get my hands on a taco. Unfortunatly... it occured to me that you can't get a taco at 4:30 in the morning... so after much thought I got out of bed at 5:45 and went downstairs and had the left over pizza from yesterday. This was enough to make me not hungry but I didn't get back to sleep until 7ish and I had to get up at 8. So it kinda sucked... I feel like I'm being haunted be the ghost of a lonely bean burrito.

Well thats all for now gotta go to the store... like kmart... and I get to see someone hopefully. Not that I care cause I really... so don't... at all... don't care.... so don't care....

*Reverie*

See all those people on the ground
wasting time
I try to hold it all inside
but just for tonight
the top of the world
sitting here wishing
the things I've become
that something is missing
maybe I...
but what do I know

and now it seems that I have found
nothing at all
I want to hear your voice out loud
slow it down, slow it down
without it all
I'm choking on nothing
it's clear in my head
and I'm screaming for something
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
on my own..

-On My Own, The Used