So lets see... how do I start off my blog today? So much to say but I don't know how to word it. Lets see... its been a crazy, confusing, happy, depressing week... you know the kind. My cat is chasing a piece of dog food around the room. Its her favorite game, I don't know why we even buy cat toys... I have pretty much no plans this weekend. Gonna sit on my ass... do nothing... its a good plan... I'm on a Tool downloading spree. Not that I download that would be illegeal but yeah... Katie told me to download a song so I was like "Okay... *downloads* *Gasp!* I loves these people!" And thats about it...

Man, I was so excited to write in my blog today and I have nothing to talk about... thats pretty sad.

And I'm pretty tired and have nothin to talk about... sorry for the pointless blog today.

*Reverie*

Ahh, so long since I have written. Lets see... last night at dance was horrendous. Rachel had the essay thing, I could hear her cry in the other room. But then again I was the only one listening for it. You can read about that in her blog. Thats why she has it :) Then Sarah had another panick attack or whatever it is. They don't know yet. Its so scary! This is the girl that just went from a triple into ronverses in heels no less and suddenly she fell to the floor and couldn't breathe. She couldn't stand and they tried to take her in the other room and she couldn't walk, she collapsed and I watched her grasp to her mom for dear life and they had to litterally drag her into the other room and her foot was sticking out of the door and I couldn't watch it because of the way it just twitched it was terrible. Then we shut the door and she screamed. It was the worst sound in the whole entire world, if I never hear that sound again I will be completly fine. It was so full of pain and fear. We turned on music but it didn't help and then we tried to do barre and the piano didn't mask it. And I wanted to cry cause it was so terrible. Then they carried her out of the small room and she had to go through our room we were in and she let out another scream and it was terrible I can't even begin to explain it. Then the sirens went off like crazy and Kristyn all spazzed and it was creepy, Sidney probably won a game or something. But it was all happening at once and it was creepy.


Oh I decided today Billy Sanchez is the funniest person on the planet. And Billy if your reading this I'm not lying, good times. =P

*Reverie*

Not much to talk about today... its Dann's birthday. Which is slightly depressing because I have been waiting on his birthday for awhile. Was going to take him out to the movies and take advantage of the dark surroundings. But no need for that now, so I sat home and cleaned today. I cleaned my room and moved all my make up crap to a diffrent bathroom so now I have my own sink. Very exciting eh? I missed talking to Brandonn today, it would have been nice to take my mind off of Dann. But, he isn't on and my mom is being all stupid about my internet access today so I won't be on when he eventually does get on. She is going to get worse when she sees my report card, which I figure I'll give her tomorrow. I just needed to keep it away from her for spring break.

My poor Rachel, having excessive technical difficulties. I can understand pretty much everything she is going through though. The distant boyfriend (well he wasn't my boyfriend but regardless), how ya know you love him but you don't know how he feels. Its hard to deal with and a bona fide pain in the ass. Men are so confusing... I read the story she wrote. It was so good, the part about kissing was adorable. hehe But it was sad... I understood it all too well, it was like AHHH I feel your pain!!!!!!! Me and Rachel can relate rather well actually. Its nice.

Well, I'm out of things to give my not-so-humble opinion on.



I wanna walk and not run
I wanna skip and not fall
I wanna look at the horizon
And not see a building standing tall

I wanna be the only one
For miles and miles
Except for maybe you
And your simple smile

Oh it sounds good to me
Yes it sounds so good to me




*Reverie*

Meh, everyone is asking me whats going on between me and Clappy. Well, I don't know really. I like him yes and talking to him makes me happy. It makes me the kind of happy Dann used to make me, cept better. And I want to go out with him, he's a good guy, and he's adorable. And the thought of him in a cowboy hat is like... really good... but the only flaw thus far is I would make a bad girlfriend. See, I know these things. Cause like I have said before, I've never had a boyfriend before in my whole entire 15 years of existance. I don't even know what girlfriends are supposed to do. Well, I mean my friends have been girlfriends and such, but thier either crazy clinging or spastic. So I don't really want to be like them...

*gasp* My Mommy and Daddy just told me I can go out with him! (cause he is 18 so if my parents didn't let me they could send his butt to jail for touching me) BUT they are down with us going out. Not that we are! Cause we aren't, I'm just saying. Its allowed now, cept we can't have sex (which I wasn't planning on like tomorrow anywho) and I can't get in his car... that rule really sucks... pooey parents... but hey its a step foreward in the right direction. And as that proverb goes, "A journey of 1,000 miles starts with 1 step"

*10 minutes later*

My mom is all wiggin out now, she thinks she made the wrong choice and now I'm going to go get knocked up and killed in a car crash by and with Brandonn (I refer to him as Brandonn with two 'n's to distinguish the diffrence between him and Brandon S,) But regardless she said yes and she isn't going to take it back or she would feel hella guilty. Well I am out of stuff to talk about... later homefrys.

*Reverie*

Meh, everyone is asking me whats going on between me and Clappy. Well, I don't know really. I like him yes and talking to him makes me happy. It makes me the kind of happy Dann used to make me, cept better. And I want to go out with him, he's a good guy, and he's adorable. And the thought of him in a cowboy hat is like... really good... but the only flaw thus far is I would make a bad girlfriend. See, I know these things. Cause like I have said before, I've never had a boyfriend before in my whole entire 15 years of existance. I don't even know what girlfriends are supposed to do. Well, I mean my friends have been girlfriends and such, but thier either crazy clinging or spastic. So I don't really want to be like them...

*gasp* My Mommy and Daddy just told me I can go out with him! (cause he is 18 so if my parents didn't let me they could send his butt to jail for touching me) BUT they are down with us going out. Not that we are! Cause we aren't, I'm just saying. Its allowed now, cept we can't have sex (which I wasn't planning on like tomorrow anywho) and I can't get in his car... that rule really sucks... pooey parents... but hey its a step foreward in the right direction. And as that proverb goes, "A journey of 1,000 miles starts with 1 step"

*10 minutes later*

My mom is all wiggin out now, she thinks she made the wrong choice and now I'm going to go get knocked up and killed in a car crash by and with Brandonn (I refer to him as Brandonn with two 'n's to distinguish the diffrence between him and Brandon S,) But regardless she said yes and she isn't going to take it back or she would feel hella guilty. Well I am out of stuff to talk about... later homefrys.

*Reverie*

Dream last night,

I was walking home from school by myself and when I got to the railroad I started like dancing and frolicking because I was going to prom. I don't know who I thought I was going with or anything I just suddenly thought I was going to prom. And I walked by an alley way and there was Dann, but I ignored him for some reason and kept frolicking down the street. Then I saw Becca coming from that street where the Boys and Girls club is and she was all frolicking too cause she was going to prom too with Mike. Thats when I reliezed I wasn't going to prom cause I didn't have a date so obviously I couldn't go. And then I woke up.

It was wierd... I dunno who the heck I thought I was going to prom with when I started frolicking down the street but yeah....

Oh! I stuck my tounge to a popsicle today. It hurt like an SOB. Thats about all for now...

*Reverie*

Wheehoo. Went to Stephis last night, good times good times.

Men... are so damn confusing. I don't even know what I want anymore. Though technically that isn't thier fault its mine cause I'm the one that doesn't know what I want. But its either to blame them eh? Sometimes I wish I could rewind like 4 months and just be happy with Dann, but then I suppose 4 months later I would just be back here and I wouldn't want to go through that crap again. But I would change some stuff so I'm not exactly where I am now. I don't even know what I would change though.

I have decided to admit that I'm afraid of commitment, basically cause I have never been in one before. Here I am 15 years old and yet to have been a girlfriend. Now, I do believe I am the only one I know of that is yet to have had a boyfriend. Though, I do proudly say I have been pathetically in love, been knocked off my feet by a kiss, and gone farther with a guy then most of my friends. Yet I have never had a boyfriend... and yes I am dwelling on this I don't care. I can dwell if I want to...

I dunno what to write about today....

*Reverie*

Ahh my brain hates me. I can't stop thinking about Dann and I don't want to think about him anymore!!!! He doesn't care why do I? Grrrrrrrr its so frustrating. Why can't I just hate him? Hate him for not caring and hate him for being so damn apathetic. But NOOOO I can't just hate the kid. Why, I don't know cause if I knew I would fix it and I would hate him. But I don't hate him I'm just frustrated and thats half the reason I'm writing this blog, I'm frustrated about thinking about him. And I hate him cause I don't hate him. And this makes no sense but I don't care cause I just need to get it off my chest. I'm done now.

Ohh, went to the mall today and picked up the Who's Next album. Good stuffs, I loves The Who now. Stephis party is tomorrow. I'm all happyful. Its comical though cause both of her birthday parties I have been mad at Dann, last time cause he liked Rachel now because... well cause he is an asshole. And a bunch of other things I can't say cause I dunno who might read this... *paranoid* haha just kidding.


The song is over
It's all behind me
I should have known it
She tried to find me

Our love is over
They're all ahead now
I've got to learn it
I've got to sing out

[chorus:]
I'll sing my song to the wide open spaces
I'll sing my heart out to the infinite sea
I'll sing my visions to the sky high mountains
I'll sing my song to the free, to the free
I'll sing my song to the wide open spaces
I'll sing my heart out to the infinite sea
I'll sing my visions to the sky high mountains
I'll sing my song to the free, to the free

When I walked in through the door
Thought it was me I was looking for
She was the first song I ever sang
But it stopped as soon as it began

Our love is over
It's all behind me
They're all ahead now
Can't hope to find me

[chorus]

This song is over
I'm left with only tears
I must remember
Even if it takes a million years

The song is over
The song is over

Searchin' for a note, pure and easy
Playing so free, like a breath rippling by



*Reverie*

Alrighty, I'm here... nothing to really talk about. Actually, I have a bunch to talk about but I don't know if now is a good time to reveal my thoughts. So, here I am at the library... doing nothing... I hate it here. I hate the computers at the library about as much as I hate taking a taxi cab or running the mile... both of which are right up there on my "Things I Hate" list, which I don't really have a list. That would be kind of cool if I did though... I'll have to make one sometime... I think men would be right under lima beans...

Went to work today... stapled for 3 hours... and now I am on the computer typing... man I am going to have terrible carpotunnel before I am like... 25. The guy next to me is drinking a slupee... I thought food wasn't allowed at the library. I wonder if he got it at Quickway, I saw they put thier slurpee machine in yesterday. But I was too poor to buy a loverly cherry slurpee. And I am going to wait for a mega hot day, thusly I will be able to cherish and respect the slupeeish goodness.

Stephanies begging me to tell her what Kyle bought her for her birthday. I dunno what the kid bought her so I don't know what I am supposed to be telling her, but regardless its comical. She is bribing me with White Chedder Cheese its at her party tomorrow. My kyrptonite... but I won't ruin her birthday from Kyle she is going to have to wait. I don't even know if Kyle did what we (as in Rachel and I) told him to do. Okay, well I fed the foolish child lies so perhaps she will shut up now. She is actually starting to believe me now.. perhaps I should take up writing or acting... I told her that I told Kyle to tie a ribbion around his penis for her. And I told her before hand that Rachel had a much more expensive idea and so she asked what that was (trying to catch me in my fiendish lie) but I told her Rachel wanted Kyle to get a diamond stud piercing on his penis. She is pissed at me now for telling Kyle these things. She is all like You should have told him to write me a song! Molly Ringwald hates you now. (Don't even ask about that part.) I hope she doesn't read this till after her birthday/her date with Kyle.

Oh today I made a pen explode in my mouth on accident.. which sucked... it really tasted bad too and so my lips and hands turned all blue... it was pretty crappy.

I think Cassie is pissed off at me for sitting with Brandon last night. I have heard via word of mouth she isn't all down with us (as in me and Rachel and once in awhile Becca) bein all cuddly with her man. Which I understand and when I thought about it later I was mad at myself for doing. Like I told Stephanie its so not sexual at all, Brandons just adorable and huggable. I mean I would never ever do anything with him cause he is Brandon and it would be wierd.

Well my hour is almost up so I will leave with some lyrics, only a short verse but nevertheless thier nice.

Telegram came today from a friend saying
"Where in the hell have you been?
where are you going?"
and I said "I don't know, Does the loneliness show?
and if so does it ever end?"


*Reverie*

Wow, today was a long day! So much to write about so little time. I have to be off in a half hour so I better type fast eh?

Okay, so I went to the funeral today for Isaac. That was sad, but I felt excessivly out of place cause it was a Catholic funeral. There was a lot of standing up and kneeling and chanting and singing and it was all very confusing cause the only church related things I am aware of that are chants are Amen and Lord hear our prayer. So it was really wierd, but it was kind of nice I suppose. They are just very devoted to thier beliefs and such. Then Stephanie didn't know Ava Maria was a religious song and I wanted to smack her. lol So oblivious sometimes. But I loves her anyway cause I am the same way. I thought about it later though and there was wayyy to much laughter from our part, the people behind us must have thought we were the biggest assholes on the planet. And then I would randomly muttered Jesus Christ! or Oh my God! When Stephanie or someone said something stupid (Note above statement about Ava Maria) so anyway, then I would like just hold my head in my hands cause I can't believe I said that in church and I would feel bad. Then like Stephanie would laugh at me and I would be like shut the hell up... oh damn it! It was so bad!!!!! I felt like a complete ass hole, and I probably looked like one too. It was shameful I don't think I could ever go back to that church.

So anyway after that... lovely showing... I went to work and stapled for 3 hours... oh be still my beating heart... and I ate Thin Mints, the bestest Girl Scout cookie EVER. I had to use a lot of control to stop from eating a whole sleeve in one sitting.

THEN I took my cat to the vet... oh wow... so much aggression for such a small cat. See, I had to put her in her carry box... she hates the box... passionatly... And she chewed a hole the size of her head into the side of it and was sticking her little arm out claws fully asembelled and ready for action. I'm all freakin out in the car hoping she doesn't like take off one of my appendages. So eventually we got to the vets and we let her out of the box and she goes running around the room hiding behind plastic plants and my moms all like Hurry up and catch her! Theres a dog coming in and we have to weigh her! And so I have to like tackle the cat and it wasn't a good experience. But now she is at the vet and tomorrow she gets spayed and then we get her back on Friday, so I'm all happy though I'm going to miss her she is my baby. :(

Ahhh 3 minutes left before I have to get off! Type fast.

Watched Texas Chainsaw Massacre, the old one tonight at the Bookhouts. Movie was stupid, yet hysterically funny. Mostly because of the terrible acting, ridiculous plot. And stupid effects, though technically that wasn't thier fault. Shannons having a bonfire this weekend, have to see if Brandon can go. I was going to email him tonight but I appear to be out of time. haha I feel like I am on a TV show...

Well thats all folks!!!

*Reverie*

Random thoughts

I read Rachels blog today and it made me sad. She is having a hard time with some things in her life and I don't know how to help her. (Rachel if your reading this I love you!!!!!! I dunno where I would be without someone thats crazy enough to keep up with me!) Somehow I am reminded of a friend of mine who will go unnamed. They were angry a lot and let it out in the wrong ways but Rachel is diffrent. Its like she masks her anger and frustrations with happiness and its so confusing. I don't know how she even does it, I try when I talk about Dann but somehow she knows I'm faking it. I hate that. Guess I'm not cut out for acting if she is going to be my critic eh?

Isaac's funeral is tomorrow, I'm not excited. It makes me want to cry thinking about going to another funeral... Why do we have to lay so many people to rest so fast? It doesn't make any sense... God works in mysterious ways I am told. *sigh* Nothing more to say I suppose.

*Reverie*

Today was going very well until of course I went to work. I woke up at like 10 (not too bad for me) took a shower and got dressed and went out and played around in my garden. I found 3 worms I was so happy :) And 3 of my four rose bushes are green on the bottom which means thier coming out of hibernation or what ever the crap rose bushes do. But the 4th one is being a loser and won't turn green, oh well. I suppose it will eventually. I'm just an impatient person. AND also I have these little purple and green shoots coming up, I dunno what they are but I'm excited. And some red shoots too, its funtabulous I tell you.

So anyway, after that I went to work and it was around noon by now, and I stapled papers together for 3 hours. Boredom beyond your possible relam of belief. Now I don't have any official times I am supposed to be at work or when I am supposed to leave work, which can be hella annoying. So I go to my boss and I say, 'Do you need me to stay?' And she was all 'Do you want to stay?' So I go 'Well, I am sick of stapling but I have nothing better to do and if you need me to stay I will.' And she gets this like... menical I'm going to kick your ass look on her face and tells me to sit down. So I kinda shuffle uneasily to the little chair by her desk. Not losing eye contact mind you I feel thats important to keep, but I probably had a deer in the head lights look on my face anyway so it probably didn't do much for my self confidence. I'm already paranoid cause I have fallen into this trap once before and I didn't think I was gonna get nailed for anything but then I got a lecture on talking on my cell phone, so based on previous experiences I have discovered when Marie tells you have a seat its a BAD sign. So anyway I sit down, deer in headlights look still glued across my face. And she breaks it down for me that, Yes my job sucks. Its boring, monotonous, and retarded. But I didn't like it I need to quit. Mind you this whole lecture spawned off of me saying I was sick of stapling. She was all like "I told this to Justin too, and when you two start school up again next week we will be having a schedule. The fun and games are over." Now, I'm unaware as to when the fun and games started, because ever since Marie yelled at Justin and me for talking there has been little to none. Actually, I haven't seen Justin in awhile, perhaps he lives in the Board Room, filing his youth away I don't know. But I digress, she continued in saying that if I didn't like my job to quit because there were lots of other kids (aka fresh blood that has been untainted by hours of stapling and filing) that are willing to take my place because frankly I am only a part time afterschool highschool student with no real rights as an employee. Man what a blow to an ego, even though when it comes to my job I don't have one because I work at Mirabitos... and I staple stuff... but regardless. So after the little speech I quickly left the building. See I have wanted to quit but my mom won't let me because she is retarded and has sand in her vagina about me getting a job and paying for stuff myself as opposed to mooching off her like the rest of the teenage population does with thier parents.

It was wierd today, I was at work and I was stapling (of course) and this woman walked by and she smelled like that stuff they kill flys with. I mean her perfume did. It made me flash back to when I was 7 and I was at my grandmothers house and I was playing in the back yard and I saw this big yellow and green cage kinda thing. And it smelled all wierd so I went over and took this huge sniff of it. God I was so retarded. Cause what it does is it lures the flys into it with its scent but then when they get in they can't get out and die shortly after cause its poisonus. So here I am, 7 years old sniffing poisonus gases. And I go back to my grandmas house and I lay down on her couch cause I couldn't breathe and I pass out and then I eventually woke up and was fine. But it was odd and I blame all my lack of brain cells and all the stupid stuff I do on that. It didn't even smell that good either so I don't know why the lady wanted her perfume to smell like that...

So yeah, here I am at the library not doing much of anything but writing in my blog. No ones on my buddy list so I'm really bored. Well, Danns on but I don't want to talk to him cause I have nothing to talk about. And he probably doesn't want to talk to me anyway, if he did he would IM me right? I don't see Dann as being too burdened with his pride to talk to me, as I am. Well I am out of things to talk about so I'll just surf the web for awhile until my hours up.

~)Reverie(~

Song: Behind Blue Eyes
By: The Who

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes



This is just for you people that are like WHEEHOO Limp Bizkit kicks ass, Fred Durst didn't write that song, he only poorly did a cover and took out the two best verses and put his own little ode to his band in there... asshole... Okay done now.

~)Reverie(~

In the rain

Its raining out and I am happy. Well its thundering out to be exact. I'm so excited its the first storm this year, and its beautiful. I love the rain and the thunder.

*5 minutes later*

hehehehehe I went out and ran around in the rain for a bit. It made me happy, thunder storms make me feel alive for some reason. And I dunno I just love them. It wierds me out how people can be afraid of them, they won't hurt you. Its odd. Its pretty much over now, *sniffle* oh well its almost summer, there should be lots of rain comin, summer is probably my favoritist season. Rain or sun all the time and no snow. Its awesome. I can't wait for summer this year. I dunno why but I can't. Maybe workin on my night moves with some studly man. Okay I'm just kidding, if you dunno what I'm talking about you need to listen to Night Moves by Bob Seger or just read my blog yesterday it has that song in it.

Thats about all for now...

~)Reverie(~

The Ring... the retardation

Okay, I watched The Ring this morning. What a frickin let down. Only the 1st half hour was scary. So last night when I tried to watch it if I had just made it through the first like... half hour I would have been fine. Sheesh... what a let down. And everyone was all like OHHH when she crawls out of the TV its so scary!!!! And it was like no... it was some kid crawling across the floor. Meh, it sucked... maybe I will watch it again some time in the dark and it will be scary. I dunno.

~)Reverie(~

Yeah, so I WAS going to watch The Ring, I get like 10 minutes into it and wig out. My parents are watching it right now I think they are going to like pee thier pants. They keep muttering to each other at least Heather is on the internet so no one can call. Yeah but thier braver then me, I am going to watch it tomorrow in the day light. My mom was so funny she was like "At least I'll have your father to hug tonight!!" My parents were talking about smoking pot and watching porn today I mean they were joking of course but still it was pretty creepy, but thier pretty wierd people what can I say.

Well thats about it... just had to state I was a wimp.

~)Reverie(~

In lu of Rachels blog

Okay so I was reading Rachels blog and I wanted to cry. She is so nice, all the time, to everyone. And the thing in there about Dann I was just like Aww I love you! As I reflect I have discovered Dann seems to bring unending confusion and complication to my rather simple life. Thusly why I am better off without him, well my logical brain thinks that of course. I wouldn't take him back now anyway, as the song goes "I don't want you back, your just the best I ever had." But then I think about this some more and reliezed Dann sucked. He never told me when something was bothering him, he broke bad or depressing news in the worst, stupidest ways and he just doesn't care. I know I can do so much better and I plan to thankyouverymuch. The next guy I am with may not sing like a Siren (lil greek mythology there for ya) or have an amazing band but he will give a shit about me and care about me and TELL me he does. Is that REALLY so much to ask? I didn't think so either cause all my friends have it and I think I deserve such things too.

So somethin is fishy with Miss Bookhout and Mr. Kain, lol Sorry that sounded cool. When I asked Rachel how was the whole hanging outage this afternoon with Pat was and her reply was "good..." and quickly changed topic to my job, of stapling papers together for 3 hours. And then Pat was all asking me if she was mad at him and such and I told him I didn't know why would she be? and he told me not to ask her about it he'll talk to her. I dunno what that means, but somethings goin on and I dunno what it is and I feel all unspecial. Oh well I imagine I will find out eventually.

So Erins party was awesome like I said before. I have been so out of it lately I didn't have quite as much fun as last year. Thier like my yearly gang of sex freaks. But I couldn't say all I wanted to with the Bookhouts there, I mean I know they would never judge me and they love me but I dunno. There my innocent friends. Well they aren't really but I like to think of them as so. Katie noticed my excessive quietness though, and asked me various times if I was alright. I mean I am but I am confused right now as to what I want. I mean if you know me well you know what I am talking about here, but since this blog is public I will not mention my dilemma. It has to do with my love life but for one beautiful moment in a long time it doesn't have to do with Dann and DAMN that feels good. lol And on that happy note I will end this blog.





Out past the cornfields where the woods got heavy
Out in the back seat of my '60 Chevy
Workin' on mysteries without any clues
Workin' on our night moves
Tryin' to make some front page drive-in news
Workin' on our night moves
In the summertime
In the sweet summertime

We weren't in love, oh no, far from it
We weren't searchin' for some high in the sky summit
We were just young and restless and bored
Livin' by the sword
And we'd steal away every chance we could
To the backroom, to the alley or the trusty woods
I used her, she used me
But neither one cared
We were gettin' our share
Workin' on our night moves
Tryin' to lose the awkward teenage blues
Workin' on our night moves
And it was summertime

And oh the wonder
We felt the lightning
And we waited on the thunder
Waited on the thunder


More good Bob Seger lyrics. The mans a genius I swear. Cept if I could relate to that song it wouldn't be about a girl. Oh well its still good.

~)Reverie(~

Song: The Fire Inside
By: Bob Seger

There's a hard moon risin' on the streets tonight
There's a reckless feeling in your heart as you head out tonight
Through the concrete canyons to the midtown light
Where the latest neon promises are burning bright

Past the open windows on the darker streets
Where unseen angry voices flash and children cry
Past the phony posers with their worn out lines
The tired new money dressed to the nines
The low life dealers with their bad designs
And the dilettantes with their open minds

You're out on the town, safe in the crowd
Ready to go for the ride
Searching the eyes, looking for clues
There's no way you can hide
The fire inside

Well you've been to the clubs and the discotheques
Where they deal one another from the bottom of a deck of promises
Where the cautious loners and emotional wrecks
Do an acting stretch as a way to hide the obvious
And the lights go down and they dance real close
And for one brief instant they pretend they're safe and warm

Then the beat gets louder and the mood is gone
The darkness scatters as the lights flash on
They hold one another just a little too long
And they move apart and then move on

On to the street, on to the next
Safe in the knowledge that they tried
Faking the smile, hiding the pain
Never satisfied
The fire inside
Fire inside

Now the hour is late and he thinks you're asleep
You listen to him dress and you listen to him leave
like you knew he would
You hear his car pull away in the street
Then you move to the door and you lock it when
he's gone for good

Then you walk to the window and stare at the moon
Riding high and lonesome through a starlit sky
And it comes to you how it all slips away
Youth and beauty are gone one day
No matter what you dream or feel or say
It ends in dust and disarray

Like wind on the plains, sand through the glass
Waves rolling in with the tide
Dreams die hard and we watch them erode
But we cannot be denied
The fire inside




Such an awesome song I had to post it.

~)Reverie(~

Ponderage.


Okay, so yeah I used to have a blog that looked considerably like this but... I need a new one. Spring break this year is like a clean slate. So I need a clean blog.

So me and Dann are like kaput. Its nice actually, we both just need to get the hell away from each other. Its been wayy too long and this was way over due and by "this" I mean deciding to see other people.

Okay so anyway yesterday was Tasha funeral. And it was beautiful, now people keep asking me how a funeral can be beautiful and if you don't understand I can't explain it. It brought so much closure to the matter and it felt good to just cry and get it over with. Thats my personal feeling though. I was actually holding together very well, through the sermon and such and then I got a little teary when the friends spoke. And then there was a slide show and they played this Garth Brooks song "If Tomorrow Never Comes" and they had pictures of Tasha growing up, that was when I really cried. I think everyone did. It was hard to think of her gone with so much left undone. She did get to donate some organs since she wanted that. There were so many people there though! We filled up the entire church then they had to put folding chairs in the aisles and people were standing in the back.

Anyway, afterwards I went to Erins birthday party. Wow that was wild, those girls frickin CRAZY!!!!! We talked about like everything and bashed men (and talked about what they did well too) and pigged out an it was like Wow... this kicks ass, Erins partys always do though.

Oh, and I rented The Ring today. I'm so excidered! I am going to watch it tonight and scare myself half to death and its going to be AWESOME. *does happy dance*

Well I have nothing else to talk about... Later homefrys.

~)Reverie(~