Today was cool beans. This morning I skidaddled over to Brandis to help with scenerey. After which I went canoeing with my parents. The forced family bonding is such poo. It wasn't terribly horrific though, I got some sun which was nice but I feel a nice burn coming on cause I laid out on the dock. There was no one at the damn and it was so prettyful. I'm going to have a tan line... I can actually already see it and I just got home. This pisses me off, I have recital coming up and I have no intentions of being the fairy with the farmers tan. Thankfully I have no dance class tomorrow because I know my arms are going to be killing me.

Adam asked me to the movies Friday and I convinced my parents to let him drive me. I hope he gets on tonight so I can tell him I can go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry... I'm good now. I just miss him so very very much.

Alright I'm done now.

*Reverie*

I know your still there, saving me... raping me... I can feel you pull me down.

Today was fun stuffs, I went to Edens grad party. My Edens alll growdeded up! *sniffle* We all had fun though between frosting fights (Kristyns a smurf!!! and Brad had it up his nose. hehe), smores, and sparklers it was great stuffs.

There is a Liz girl that is reading Rachels blog is startin to piss me off. I mean, I don't like certain people. That doesn't mean I go be a douche bag and leave little comments in thier blog. You meet people on this planet you don't like, you can't get along with all 9 billion of us. Or something like that I dunno the real number. But I mean, really here if I acted out on all the people that I didn't like I'm pretty sure I would have my hands full. I dunno, all I'm saying is that its so stupid... people need lives. Really and truely.

Well I'mma go stake out AIM and hope someone interesting gets on...

*Reverie*

Alright alright, so tonight I went to see The Notebook with my Bookhouts. I give it two thumbs up. The main actor was gorgeous... I'm still drooling... and the main actress was pretty and she wasn't skanky. Such a rarity in todays films. And the old people that played were so cute!!!!! Not like.. sexually cute of course but cute in that classic old people way. And may I comment this is not a date movie, this is a get all your single friends together for a cryfest type movie. The actors did such a good job, the love they had for each was soo deep. I mean yes it was acting but it was so believable. And definatly made me jealous.

Oddly enough throughout various points in the movie I thought of Adam, (despite recent events that I am not writing in my blog). Maybe because Adam is blonde and so was the main actor? Doubtful eh? Probably because I misseseses my Adam and his big ol' earrin'. I need to figure out when he works at Kmart and go see him. Tell him to get his butt online so I can talk to him once in awhile. Oh well, even if I don't I have all next year I suppose.

Well I'mma do other things now.

*Reverie*

Whats up my homies? Hehe sorry I'm bored but I'm also kinda hyper. Cause I'm listenin to this cooltabulous song Brandi told me to download. Well actually its the remix of the song (Its called Six Feet Under, well its the theme song to that movie. But then they put a bass behind it and its technoified but in a good way) *bops* Yeah I wanna dance to it, unless I find somethin else. I dunno its pretty cool so it'll be hard to top. lol But despite the obvious draw of its cool noises I want something deep and emtional. If only I could find a deep song with cool noises. Its a tricky thing to do. lol

Today was... umm...well it was a day, and its consisted of 24 hours, and it was a Thursday. And thats all I'm going to say about what happened today.

The End.

*Reverie*

I may regret what I've done, but hey at least I had some fun. =D

I really don't feel like going to work today... *makes face* I want the money though because dddeeeeeppppppppp down I'm a tiny bit capitalist. lol So I went to the store today and got todays paper cause I'm hoping Amy put in either my solo or our modern picture. Course I sat down and searched the paper and only found two pictures of Brandonn, and one of Eden and various other seniors that I'm going to miss sooo much!! But I just found it ironic since Brandonn was in the paper last week and I just started buying that paper last week so every issue I have involves Brandonn. Cept I don't wanna see Brandonn cause he moved away and I miss him and forgetting him would be considerably easier then having to see his picture everywhere. So in conclusion... Curse the Tri-Town and graduation came too soon.

But then again if I was graduating I would feel diffrently. lol I think I'm going to go to graduation just to see them all again. All of them are such characters its crazy. Our class isn't even half as cool. Its so very very sad to know I won't see them on a regular basis ever again. [insert sniffilage here] Even though I don't like/know 75% of them theres still the 25% I do know and love. lol So I might just make Becca go with me cause I know she has been thinking about it.

*Reverie*

Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees

Ring around the rosey, pocket full of posey. Ashes to ashes, we all fall down... Gravedigger, when you dig my grave could you make it shallow? So that I can feel the rain.

I love that song sorry didn't mean to put a negative vibe on this entry but I'm listening to its so good. Edens dancing to it and its SOOOOO awesome. She showed me it she has like 40 seconds done but its soo funtabulously amazing. Everyone needs to come see it, well everyone needs to come to recital anyway.. As I put it to Katie and Steph... "what are you doing Saturday July 11th at 7PM?... well lemme tell you what your doing your comin to my recital dang it!" And so now they're coming. =D Sorry had to do a recital promo at some point, you all knew it was coming. lol

Yesterday was my last test!!!!!!!!! You have no clue how excessivly happy I was when I got out it was like SHABAM!!!! Just like that, cept not quite... it was a little diffrent. lol And I found out how I did on the finals and I am going to brag on here and I don't care. lol Math A Regents (which I retook): 84 (2 points higher than last time and only one point under mastery level I was so peeved...), My Global History Regents: 88, Biology Regents: 93 (HELLS YEAH!! lol Sorry... done.), and then I gotta 95 on my English final. I don't know what I got on my Spanish Regents.. as long as I passed is all I care about I never want to sit in that class again... ever...

Anyway after tests I hung out with my Becca. I loveses her so much :) We playeded video games and she ended up kicking my butt towards the end but its all good ("Somersault!!" Don't ask lol) Then we went to J&V's and pretended we weren't looking for Adam (not my Adam her Adam. lol Theres a diffrence.) Besides he's not MY Adam, I have to continuously tell myself that. Its getting easier now though cause I haven't seen him in awhile. I miss him but hey, life goes on. And I'll see him next year. Of course this leaves my summer goal once again to go man hunting. Which I hate, its so boring and costs money (for like.. tickets to get into places and new outfits and crap and crap and more crap) which I dislike cause I'm a cheap basterd. I think decent guys should just show up on spontainously on my door step. Would make my life hella easier...

Well I'm outta stuff to talk about.

*Reverie*

Constant overstimulation numbs me, but I would not want you any other way. How can this mean anything to me? When I really don't feel anything all. Well I'll keep digging, until I feel something.

Alright, so Rachel has this new blog reader. I dunno how some of these people get her blog name but oh well. lol Anyway, his entire blog is devoted to the study of sexuality. Its so completly ridiculous. I read some of the entries and they are just silly. For example, one entry wondered why women though we care slightly about looks care more about how men make us feel. While men only care about looks and sex. This question is easiably answerable if you look at it in a scientific type way. Back in the day when we were all a bit more barbaric and instinctual. Men only cared about passing on thier DNA to many offspring in order to ensure its survival. So they looked for the healthiest women around to do this with. This translates today into men are horny pigs that only want to have sex with hot chicks. Then the whole thing about women, well back in the day we wanted a decently healthy guy that will stay around and protect and help raise the kids. So they want someone they feel safe and protected with. So that means in todays society chicks dig movies like "The Notebook" because the men take care of the women and make them feel special. Now I don't know if that made sense to you but it made sense to me darn it. lol

And another thing about this guys blog, and put at the top that there is a 50% divorce rate in America, and he asks why the other 50% lives in like a painful terrible marriage. So basically he is asking why everyone isn't divorced because marriage is obviously SO pointless. And I just wanna tell him to shut the crap up. You can't say ALL marriages are crap. As I use for an example everytime I talk about love/marriage look at my parents. They have been together 20 years and get along just fine and they are still crazy in love with each other. So you can't go saying all marriage is crap.

So in conclusion!! People doing research on sexuality shouldn't be such complete morons.

*Reverie*

Hey, I have some good news. My parents told me they would sell me thier car for $1,500. Its a nice car too, a little silver Dodge Stratus. And all you people that are gonna IM me and be like OHHH A DODGE STATRUS HOW COOOOOL in a sarcastic way shut up. lol Its better than your car, which you probably don't even have one... so shut up. lol The only flaw here is the whole... finding the $1,500. I have awhile though... like... a long while... but hey. I have a car coming and its such a positive feeling.

So my day was really boring... so far I've played video games and done my laundry.... whooohoo.. Tomorrow I have no testing though!!! SHABAM!!!!!!!! haha sorry. Then I have my Spanish regent Tuesday, which I'm not worried about. Well I am slightly worried about the compositions... but yeah. I might actually study!!! *gasp* lol Alright, nvm I probably won't. I don't want to fill you all with false hope here.

Alright well I'm out of stuff to yack about. (wheehoo yackity yack don't talk back) Hope I got that song stuck in ALLL of your heads now! MUWHAHAHHAHAHA!!!!...*ahem*...sorry...

*Reverie*

Heys, today was pretty nice. I'm beat though. x.x << me. lol

Well first off this morning I had a dance out in Afton, went rather well really. I didn't completly screw over my solo and people liked it well enough. I came off the stage panting though, that solo just about kills me everytime I do it. And Kristyn was like "You should work on your cardio." And I'm just like... "yeah... maybe I'll lay off the Cheetos..." Then I went to Amys house and had 4 pieces of pizza. lol They were small though cause it was Pizza Hut pizza so it doesn't really count, its like.. the size of two joe and vinney slices. Oh and here is a story for all of you. Okay so I rode with Amy to the dance out cause my parents went to my grandparents today and when we got there she asked me to que up all the tapes. Well I missed the acro dance. So we all get up there and the kids get on stage and she puts the tape in and we wait... and wait... and finally I hear "Heather Haviland! Did you get this tape ready?" Me from behind the curtains: "Ummm.... yes?" We wait some more, the stereo plays silence. Amy: "You sure?" I poke my head out of the curtain cautiously "Umm... y-no.." Amy gives me this look it wasn't a I'm going to hurt you look or anything it was acutaully quite funny. Amy: "Heather you forgot this tape." Me: "I love you Miss Amy." 0=) Amy: "yeah yeah..." I go hide behind the curtain Amy: "Thats right you go hide behind the curtain now." I dunno it was really funny at the time I probably ruined it now trying to retell it... It just goes to show you all! Don't give me responsibilities!!! lol Anyway, I got home from the dance out and I reliezed I hadn't called my boss to tell her I wasn't going to be at work. I convulsed on the floor for 10 minutes. I am going to get it Monday, I can feel it coming... I did call and leave a message but this was at like 11:30 so it was pretty pointless. Then I sat around and played video games until 4 when I went to Amy's house to babysit for her and Chris so they could go out for thier aniversery. They have good kids, I love em. I'm just very drained now. lol They want to do everything all at once. I did end up teaching Makenzie how to play Mary had a little lamb on her keyboard. She was very excited about it and so I felt happy. =)

So yeah if you read Rachels blog you know how pathetic we are and hew we already looked at prom dresses... lol I wanna post the two I fell in love with on here cause I want everyone to see them they are soooo pretty!!!!!!! here is one: http://www.loralie.com/proms.php3?s=7089 Its all... pretty. And here is my other one that I loove THIIIISSSSSSSSSSSS much! lol http://www.loralie.com/proms.php3?s=7697 I dunno they are both so pretty.... Anyway. I am done now. I'mma go talk to Becca about cars or... something. lol

*Reverie*

Howwwdyyyyyy yalls!!!!!! Meh that was my enthusiasm for the day. I dunno the past couple days have just been like... blah. I hate everyone. lol I don't really, I am just sick of talking to people. There are like 3 exceptions to this rule. Well that and the people at dance cause I'm never sick of them. Wait I take that back, Wednesday I was teaching and I don't know if it was the heat or what but I wanted to go kamakzi on some of the kids. We have TWO classes until recital and they are just being dork faces and as my mom would put it "piss assin around" I dunno, drove me nuts. Maybe its some teenage thing. I was watching that Ashlee Simpson show today during Monk commercials and I was so jealous of her. Isn't that pathetic to be jealous of a retarded chick? I dunno, she just had a car and her own apartment and I was like... MEH I HATE YOU!! lol I don't even need a fancy apartment/fancy car. I just want one... heck I would even settle for only a car. (Hey I'm dreaming here leave me alone. lol) Sorry I'm done going on my I-want-to-break-away-from-my-parents tangent. hehe


I had a realllly wierd dream last night that I want to say on here before I forget it! (if you don't feel like reading just skip down to where I analyze my own dream lol) Okay so in the beginning a couple guys I know who will go unnamed put me in this hatch under the floor of this basement (I don't know we were at some party I guess) and the hatch was just like this little box that I was all scrunched up in and I was getting really pissed off at them and then they lit the room above me on fire and were laughing when I tried to get out. I finally did though and I think I punched one of em. And if I didn't in my dream I should have. lol Anyway then the next thing I remember is I was diving with some of my friends I don't remember which ones.... though I remember Becca was there. It was cool though cause we could breathe underwater and crap though during the dream I didn't see the big deal in this but now I see how cool it was. lol anyway I saw this really pretty plant so I took a piece of it and then we went back to this island thing I guess we were living on. But by taking this plant I peeved off some chicks ghost that drowned in the ocean (I think this part was playing off The Ring) cause I remember seeing the girl in the water and she looked like the girl from The Ring. Anyway, so we went back to the island and Miss Amy was there. I don't know why she just was. I don't remember much after this. But I remember this transcended into we were trying to leave the island with this big diamond some one found but the water was haunted cause the girl from before and she just wanted to diamond back so I'm telling people to just throw it in the water and give it back but NOOOO no one will listen to me! lol (yeah this a long dream people sorry) anyway, then we left on these little boats and I remember a lot of screaming in my dream because the boats kept sinking and everyone was wigging out. lol That sounds really sadistic. Don't worry I'm wierded out by this dream too. =P So anyway, then we get back to land by we I mean me and my friends and maybe Miss Amy I dunno she may have stayed on the island thing cause I don't remember her in this part. But anyway, when we got back we found out we were REALLLY small. Like the size of bugs. So we were crawling around trying to get away from the people in this village. And then I saw Dann but it wasn't Dann cause this guy was hella hotter than Dann. He just resembled Dann, anyway he was like a asisstant to some guy that kept throwing his shoes at him (him as in the kid that looked like Dann but wasn't). Then we found this cottage full of other little people and thats when I woke up. Mind you I woke up at 4:30 in the morning cause my cat jumped on my face. Darn my cat.

So my theory on this veryyy long dream. The first part is about my social standing at my school. Some guys pretty much ruined my reputation cause they are douche bags and so the fire is the crap they spread around the school. Of course escaping and going up the stairs represents summer. WHHHEHHHOOO! lol The diving part is like the opposite of the fire because I am with my friends and everything is funtabulous. And also I haven't gone swimming in forever and I miss it! Well I mean I have goofed off in a pool but I mean like swimming laps I love that. :) Anyway, we are all happy there and crap then we have to leave because I screwed something up. I don't know what I did in real life but anyway, I don't know what Miss Amy's island represents... maybe since the ocean is my happy place then dance is right in the middle of it? Meh I dunno, I'm over thinking this. Anyway, I remember my parents were there when we tried to go out on the ocean in the boats and they wouldn't leave the diamond. And since the ocean represents my happy free feelings and my parents wouldn't let them be maybe I feel like I'm all being stifled from growing up. Though its not really thier fault, college just isn't coming soon enough. lol Anyway, then we return to the normal world and once again all the adults in the dream are gone and its me and my friends and we are all really small. As in no one cares about our opinions and we are really close to getting stepped on a lot so we have to go hide in the leaves. (hey this is really a my life sucks dream eh? lol Don't worry I don't really think my life sucks. hehe) Then the Dann lookalike cept hotter thing. I don't know, but he is taking a lot of crap from his boss. Maybe Danns becoming a prostitute to "The Capatilist System of America" lmao I have no idea where that came from but you can't go wrong when you put something in quotations. At the end of my dream we find people like us so we are safe. A nice way to end a dream really. :)

Okay I am going to give myself carpletunnel typing so much.

*Reverie*

Hey yalls. I just feel like talkin, I have no real topic for this blog. I'm just sittin around listenin to Tool cause it reminds me of my Adam. Well he isn't mine, actually I am pretty sure he wants nothing to do with me. I still don't know what the hell I did to deserve this ignorage. If he is playing hard to get it isn't fun anymore. And I thought that was my job since I'm the chick.. And I don't play hard to get anyway, I state my feelings in a very obvious fashion. I dunno, I haven't talked to him since like Monday. It must be like withdrawl. I didn't think I could have withdrawl from something I'm not supposed to be caring about but I'm doing a pretty damn good job. *breathe* Okay, I am done going on my I miss Adam tangent.

Alright I gotta put this song in here its by Ben Folds Five and I can't get over it its awesometabulous. :)

Brick, Ben Folds Five:

6 am day after Christmas
I throw some clothes on in the dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping
I am numb

Up the stairs to the apartment
She is balled up on the couch
Her mom and dad went down to Charlotte
They're not home to find us out
And we drive
Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
Then I walk down to buy her flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Than she ever has before

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly

As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son, it's time to tell the truth
She broke down, and I broke down
Cause I was tired of lying

Driving home to her apartment
For a moment we're alone
Yeah she's alone
I'm alone
Now I know it

She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly


I dunno why I love that song so much but I do. It has a nice piano with it too. I dunno Ben Folds Five is a good band though. :)

*Reverie*

'Ello all!! I had all these things I was going to write about today but I forgot them all. You'll have that. Oh the math regents today. So easy. Thank God cause I didn't study for it.

Oh oh! So once again people are saying I am obsessed with Dann. God how I hate this school and am so glad I am out of it. Okay so that small tangent came from I was walking home yesterday and "Cody" was riding the bus (we all remember Cody right? And we remember his name isn't really Cody I just changed it cause I am a nice person. Anyway.) He goes to his friend "You see that big girl?" Friend: "shes not big." C: "Well she is like a foot taller than the other ones." F: "yeah I guess," C: "She wouldn't go out with me because she is obsessed with Dann Zieno." [insert anger here] Here is where we add Colleen who has been listening to this conversation and saves the day. lol Colleen: "She isn't obsessed with Dann she just didn't like you like that and wanted to be friends with you and she had other reasons." Cody: "Oh... whats the reasons?" Colleen: "I'm not at the liberty to discuss that right now."

So conclusion here: I am not obsessed with Dann (then again those of you that read this blog know I have Adam Felter intrests so restating this really is getting me nowhere) and Colleen can come in handy. lol

On to my foot! Yes yes and yes! MUWHAHAHA I only strained a tendon so I am just going to keep wearing my brace and continue dancing. *menical laughter* hells yes! It was so terrible yesterday sitting there watch people dance. I wanted to dance hella bad!!! I mean talking to Heather Frost and eating cheese its was fun, but I would rather be dancing. lol

Alright well speaking of dance class I have to get off and get going to it.

*Reverie*

Hear ye hear ye!!! The Heather Haviland dance recital review is now in session. lol I wish I still played the trumpet. I would definatly get one out and bombard you all with noise. Anyway, I would like to put a disclaimer at the verryy top of this blog. The opinions reflected here are NOT of my dance studio. They are sololy of me! Moi and myself! As in, if you don't like what I say sorry, but don't hate my studio for it. Alright thats enough disclaimer on to the review. lol

So I got there during the second half of the first act.My moms fault people not mine. But I talked to Heather Frost and she said the opener was hella good. Well she didn't say THAT cause I don't think Heather would ever say "hella" but regardless. It was good, or so I'm told. Thier strongest dances were Bother and All My Life. Without a doubt. Specially All My Life, cause they were tryin to be all bad ass but they were having so much fun they kept smiling. So it made me smile, but then I felt wierd smiling cause they were pretty much dancing half naked so I was creeped out momentairly. Its just they knew they were kicking some ass and they were having fun. But then I figured that it was the feeling they were giving off the stage was what was making me smile and not thier half nakedness. So I felt better after establishing that. lol

None of the solos really fascinated me, well besides the graduate solos but more on that later. (Yes a tangent is coming, =P) Um but anyway, the girl who did Hell is For Children. Her beginning pose was awesome. I just openly gawked at its coolness. It was so simple but it looked really awkward and discombobulated. I dunno, I can't explain it. I didn't really like her dance though, just mostly her pose.

A bunch of seniors came back and danced too. No Ace though, which stinks cause he was awesometabulous. I liked Julies dance best out of the graduates. Mostly because I love the song she did (Turn Me On, By Nora Jones) so good. And it was done tastefully.

Then they did a tribute to Isaac. It was so nice, they did it very well. It was kinda long, but it was a slide show. And the slide show had video and it just made me cry really hard. Specially this one video and he kisses Amy and I was like *start bawling* it was a good tribute. True love thats interupted via major crisis always makes me cry. Course then later I found out Isaac had a less then perfect track record but this blog entry isn't about that.

Alright so then this guy gets on stage and he isn't in the program. And he starts dancing and I was like... *jaw drop*. He was AMAZING. I mean everything was soo fluid and his leaps had amazing height he landed them all silently. And I just sat there oogling at the talent. Had I seen him after the show I would have asked for his autograph. Thats how good he was. lol And so then I get online and I am talking to Brandi about it he was a student of Andreas and then he went all famousified and is a professional and I was just soo glad I went to see that recital now.

I mean Tammys girls were good. They all have very prettiful extension and nice jumps but all thier dances are pretty much the same. Like a majority of thier songs sound a like (NOT all but most), and its like they pick a few moves every year and do them in every dance. I like some things they do though, like how they have dancers doing diffrent things and the levels they create. Very nice looking, there was this one part in Bother where some girls were on the floor and other ones were like running around in a circle and it was so simple but it looked awesome. But then of course there are other dances that are umm... not so tasteful. Actually I only saw one really bad and grossed me out. Maybe I'm just harder to shock then the rest of the world. I don't know, anyway.

Thats all for now, I have nails on so its excessivly hard to type.

*Reverie*

I'm so happy right now I gotta write in my blog even if it has nothing to do with me. lol Dann got a $5,OOO recording contract last night at the Battle of the Bands. And he got a 3 track demo and 30 hours freee studio. But I know he got the contract. I am SOOOOOOOO fricking happy for him!!! I like danced around my house in joy, he deserves it. My mom was like OMG you have to get that demo! I was like Yeah mom I know. I dunno I tried to congratulate him and he kinda blew me off. Probably thinks I'm kissing his ass and trying to get back with him. Which I'm not I am just so happy for him. :)

Thats all for now I gotta go clean my grandmothers basement... don't ask.

*Reverie*

Meh I am sooo tired. Thats why I am on here... I'm trying to stay awake. I gotta call Steph at 11 but Adam said he was gonna get on tonight so I figure I will give him till 11 to get on then after that he can go hang. At this point neither The Clash or The Darkness are keeping me awake. Thats a terrible terrible thing. Alright, 15 more minutes. What can I talk about on here for 15 more minutes? okay I got something. You know how when you yawn if you do it realllly big when you close your mouth you feel your bones grind together? That feels gross. And it sounds really gross too so everytime I yawn I turn my headphones up. Alright that took up 3 minutes. In that 3 minutes I had 4 bone grinding yawns. Just incase anyone is curious. I wonder how long I can balance a penny on my nose? Maybe I can do it for the rest of this blog entry. For some reason the penny is making me go cross eyed. Eventhough I'm not looking at it. Damn it I just itched my nose and it fell off... we try again. Alright... 6 minutes left... hmmmmmmmm.... this penny is actually staying on my nose rather well...I just turned my head and it didn't fall off. There I turned it again and at a higher velocity and it didn't fall off. This must be an added bonus for having a big nose. That and the ability to smell stuff before everybody else. I have to call Stephanie soon. I know this is going to be a long conversation about Brad so I figure I'll just drag out my PS2 and play pong while I go "mhmm..." thats right people, I have a $200 video game system and I play pong on it. And its old atari style too. Its pretty hot. Alright I'm done on here. Hope you all enjoyed reading this and wasting 5 minutes of your life. lol

*Reverie*

I hung out with Adam a bunch today, was nice. I have decided I am just going to treat him like a friend. Hell thats all we are anyway. I found Adam can pull off gay in a very convincing manner. Was the funniest thing I have seen in soo long. Don't even ask. lol We left school 5 minutes early, well we stayed on campus for the 5 minutes we just were in his car. And no we weren't doing anything we were just sitting there listening to music. I can't help but wonder if we left early so he could get back and give Rachel Scott a ride. I don't know, I think I'm being paranoid. I hope. But even if he did I can't do anything about it we are only friends. I think that should be my new manta "we are only friends."

But overall school was booooorrriiiiiinnngggggg!!!! I went to the middle school and helped them disect frogs, I told them the liver was the lungs on accident I corrected myself later but oh well. I think they all look alike. lol Then this kid joined our group late and so I didn't really check that he was wearing safety glasses because I was trying to prevent kid from completley mutalating the frog and another kid burst the gal blatter and fluid all squirted into the kid w/o saftey glasses eye... yeah oops... meh he was fine. lol

Okay lets see what else was interesting that happened today. I can't really think of anything. So on to my interesting work stories! And yes I actually have interesting work stories. lol Well they are dirty stories so umm... young children stop reading! lol I don't think any young children read my blog but that was my disclaimer... ANYWHO! On to the stories!

Alright so Jill (infamously known for her sick mind and ability to push peoples buttons for her own enjoyment) was typing and she had a pen in her mouth. And Stacie mutters to her "Oh look she has a red Bic in her mouth" Like Bic brand pen. And so the rest of the night Jill is asking people if they want to use her red bic. And Kathy just goes "No you have bee beating it on the desk!" Because Jill was tapping it on the desk. It was so great. lol

Then later pretty much everybody was out of the office cept me and my co-teenager-who-also-doesn't-get-paid-for-shit Justin. He can be cool, talks a lot. Its usally comical though. And we were the only ones in the room so we are joking around and I think we were talking South Park.. or maybe lighting cats tails on fire... Well he was talking about it, I was saying how terrible it was. lol Then like he said something that wasn't even that funny and I dunno how but I snorted really loud and it hurt. And then of course we turned this happening into a conversation on how wierd it would be if there were people out there with a snorting fetish and snorting turned them on. So we got to all planning out what a website for them would look like, (many many sound clip downloads, no pictures though cause its all in the mind. lol) and then we got quiet for a like a second. (We were working while we do this so we had moments of quiet.) Then like all of the sudden down the hall some girl makes this really wierd laughing type noise and I swear to Bob it sounded like an orgasm. And I just kinda look up slightly like... umm... I mean my minds already in the gutter here. I didn't look at Justin cause hey maybe its just my sick mind cortorting things. Then we hear this woman make the orgasm sound again and we looked at each other and just about died laughing. And it was great cause through our laughter we are both like "I didn't wanna look up the first time cause I thought I was the only one thinking thats what it sounded like!" It was so classic. I mean you probably don't see the humor here as much as I do, maybe you had to be there. I dunno. I just had to write about that cause it was so great.

Alright, I am outta stuff to talk about and how to do top a story about a silent office suddenly being bombarded with some orgasm like noises... lol

*Reverie*

Okay I am back everyone. And in happier moods. I dunno, dance class was good stuffs. I loveseses my dancer girlies. And I just forgetted about my stupid Adam problem. Who the heck cares? Its highschool. There are other fish in the sea. This isn't life or death. In the words of Jill. "Your young! You shouldn't be tied down! Go out and have fun!!"

So just letting yallls know I'm in a very good mood now and well Adam sucks and screw him.

*Reverie*

Alright, so I want to rant before I go to dance class so I'm going to get this overwith. Today sucked. Well there was a good part but I am going to say that at the end so I end on a good note. =)

Okay so I was talking to Rachel Scott today and she is talking about Adam and she is all "oh yeah I went over to his house the other day and we sat around and watched TV and then when he dropped me off I gave him and kiss and I gave him one again the other day." And then she went on talking about how Adam doesn't really make out and crap. My response: Oh. Thats nice. (Internal thoughts Adam will be getting it today in his car. And I don't mean that in a good way I mean in a way like I'm going to blow a gascet...)I tell Becca and Rachel of course immediatly and they were more pissed than I was... I love my friends. lol And they tell me I have to confront him on it and find out whats going on. I know this... and I had planned on it. So I got my whole how I was going to word everything so it didn't seem like I wanted to rip his face off and I was just curious about what was going on and I was all ready to do it. Then I see him afterschool and we walk to his car. No talking. We get in his car we talk about a kid that drives by. Mostly Adam holding up the short conversation with my interjections once and awhile. Then we stop talking before we even pull out of the parking lot. I continue to stare ahead. I know I'm not going to talk about what I had planned on. I was chickening out. And so I had no other conversation to even think of starting so I just sat there staring out the window. Two blocks from my job he comments how quiet I have been. As opposed to when I usually talk his ear off just because I love to talk to him. I mutter something I don't even know what I said. He asked if I had a bad day. I said yes. Conversation ended. He drops me off at work. I hug him and get out of the car. He hasn't told me to call him in awhile, so I haven't. Nor would I if he asked. I am seeing this is all very muchly not worth it. Because we are almost done with school and I doubt he will take the time to see me this summer. What is the point? There is none. And if Rachel Scott is enough to make us not get together then obviously this isn't going to work out anyway. I thought this was going to though, I mean I had no plans of dating him for years to come or whatever. But I mean, he is a good guy that I was pretty sure was worth hanging around. Obviously this is merely a bad judgement call on my part...

On to the good news. I got a 100 on my Spanish speaking exam today. Thats right I kicked its ass. =D Umm... oh! Monday I get to go to the middle school and help them disect frogs. I was supposed to go look at frog diagrams yesterday but... I forgot. So I am just gonna hope the insides of a fetal pig are at least somewhat like the insides of a frog..

Well I am going to talk to Rachel then I am going to go to dance. Dance where no one cares about my social life and so I can forget about it. *sigh* I love dance. lol

*Reverie*

MEH! I feel like ranting. I seem to be doing that to my blog a lot lately so I will start off my blog with good news... then go on my "tangent" (=P). Umm I gotta 92 on my english final! And I'm gonna be kickin some regents butt soon. I'm not really worried about any of my classes cept Social Studies because I haven't learned anything alll year... really I'm not exaggerating. But anyway back to good news. Ummm.. alright I'm sick of this time to rant. lol

Okay so my new hate is couples. Like I mean... I don't mind people dating and really I swear to Bob this is NOT a jealous everyone has boyfriends but me thing. Cause everyone doesn't so that would be silly. Lemme start here with Caity and Eric... at first thier dating and cuddling was... cute. Now.. disgustingly cute. They have turned into Stephanie and Kyle... well what Stephanie and Kyle USED to be. You know what I mean. Well Stephanie and Kyle were never cute to begin with as Caity and Eric were. And it seems now everytime I look at those too I feel as if I am looking at a hole in reality and its really not real its like they ripped some Dawsons Creek characters off TV and placed them in Sidney Highschool. I swear to God if they start cuddle wrestling in front of my one more time... *ahem* ... I'm good.

And now there is Stephanie and Brad. I mean I love them both. Though I don't really know Brad but I know he is a good kid. Well he isn't really a kid considering he is older than me by like 4 years... but regardless. They... wow. Like.. really... I have not actually talked to Stephanie about something BESIDES Brad for over 10 minutes since... I dunno. I actually haven't talked to Stephanie in awhile cause Brads usually at her house. I mean yesterday she had family over so she couldn't really talk and I don't mind that. But my God... he is there all the frickin time. I can't even like call her after he leaves because he is there till like 1 AM. And like... well lemme just tell you all what started this angry I hate couples thing...

a.) Caity and Eric cuddle wrestling on the heater today. (Me and Rachel went off on how we hate them all and how they need seperate idenetities. I'll go into that later.)
b.) This morning... I'm eating a doughnut... I turn the corner. Theres Derrick McHenry and Heather Cary forehead nuzzling in the hallway. And I truely could not refrain from like yelling "I'm going to vomit." Like I said it before I knew I said it. And my chorus teacher was walking by and she just stops and stares at me and I'm like... Umm sorry.. they just.. and she just starts laughing and was like "oh its the food you ate that made you want to vomit." all wink wink nudge nudge it was quite comical. She momentarily was cool.
c.) So Stephanie isn't talking to me online. Of course this is because Brads on. I'm used to this. I can deal with it really without a problem. But like 5 seconds after he signs off she sends me this cry faces. And I was like... *immediatly check to see if its because Brads off* of course I'm right. She goes in about how his computer must be going crazy and how he has wireless internet so it must be the storm and how they are supposed to go to her Grandmas at 10 o'clock tonight and if he doesn't get on she is going to cry cause she misses him soooo bad. And I just said "oh no... whatever shall we do.." and then got on my blog. And I don't care if I'm being immature and childish here I don't care. You people are gross.

Like back to Rachel and I said today and lunch. When we get significant others we make sure to establish we have our own personality. We are NOT connected to this person at the hip. And we can stand not touching them for 5 frickin seconds. I swear to Bob these people act like if they aren't touching each other thier walls will come crashing in and they will die. Now I understand the urge to want to be closeto the person you care about. I get all excited at the end of English cause I know I get to go see Adam and get hugs and such. That doesn't mean as soon as I see him I grasp onto him for dear life and don't let go... we talk like normal people and then we hug at the end of the conversation thats about the extent of our PDA not that we are going out but you know what I mean. It isn't like this on going conversation between myself and his chest because I'm so close to him that I can't look up.

Of course you know if I say anything about this to anyone they immediatly respond "well we are in love, you'll understand when it happens to you." What the hell. My parents love each other, they have been together for 20 years. They never fight... ever. That doesn't mean they maul each other all the frickin time. I mean they cuddle up on the couch and crap but its not like they can't have the decency to keep thier hands off each other in public. Love isn't something you can show via molesting each other for the whole world to see... thats just possesive lust. All that constantly groping each other in the hall says about you is your a frickin horny teenager.

Alright... Reno 911's new season premeire is tonight so I'm done now.

*Reverie*

Alright so I usually don't write in my blog on weekdays but today is an exception. Some "interesting" things happened today I must say. So I had many, many jealousy fits. I swear to God I'm such a Scorpio... Anyway, they were almost all about Adam. The other one I will get to later. But I am resolved with Adam.. I just decided I don't like everyone else. lol I dunno, I was angry until I looked at him and it was like okay nevermind... I'm not mad at him. I dunno, I can't be mad at him its terrible.

Now Dann on the other hand... I can get easily mad at him. Because he is apparently oblivious to the world. I saw him walking home with Rachel today and for a split second my blood boiled with hatred. (I'm so good with adjectives eh?) Kinda the way I felt when I saw Adam walking with Rachel S today... *moment of silent anger*... Like I said I'm a scorpio.. leave me alone. lol Anyway back to the story. And so I was all mad for a secound but as soon as I looked at Adam though all hatred was gone, in its place were those lovey happy feelings so I was glad. =) Anyway, the reason I was mad at Dann was because in Rachels blog she wrote about how Dann invited her into his house. Hello Dann what the hell.. you may be okay with having your exs do stuff with your friends but females on the other hand are not like that. I mean yeah me and Dann technically never "went out" persay... but we dated and so that counts for something. So anyway the whole thing with Dann and Rachel frustrated me, because she talks about how she almost went in and blah blah blah. Pissed me off, I'm sorry but it did. I mean, she could have just not said she wanted to I mean she didn't have to deny it but she also didn't have to write in her blog for me to read.

I don't know if she is trying to piss me off and cause some trouble or what but Rachels blog has angered me more than usual lately. I mean not just this, somethings about the studio. Which I just stay out of that whole mess, I dunno I just am told what goes on after everyone else knows. Like all the news at the studio lol. Oh well, but anyway. She goes about saying things that anger me because I know Brandi and Amy wouldn't play games with Rachel and what not and its all just making our studio look like some pyscho sorority club and they're dictators trying to rule the world and they're not. I'm sure they were just concered for her or whatever. I dunno I don't try to get what happened. I just throw my hands in the air and just shut up because I don't know whats going on and thats always the best choice.

Speaking of dance I rolled my ankle tonight, peeved me off cause I actually really wanted to dance but I didn't want to put weight on it cause it hurt like an SOB but I just shut up and took aspirin. Then afterwards I went to Kmart and got an ace bandage. Its not so bad now.

Well I gotta get goin.

*Heather*

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY Did yalls miss me? Yes yes I missed you all too. I never write during the week anymore cause I suck like that and I don't have time. I must admit I have had an interesting week... I got Tonys CD Thursday from Eden... *gasp* I loveseses it. Now all I need is Franny and it would be very good like. Well I want more CD's than that but I am going for an unselfish look today. Lets see... what else happened this week... I ordered a Sifl and Olly t-shirt... I can't wait for it to come in the mail... my house is cold... in case anyone wanted to know.

I got my dance schedule for next year!!! Wheehooo I was so excited, :) Thats pretty sad when I get excited over a dance schedule eh? But its fun. Recital is coming soon. I'm nervous as hell. It'll be alright I'm sure... I'm still ascareded though...

Nothing really new is happening with Adam for all of you that are curious. I'm sure you weren't but I don't care I wanna reason to think about him. lol Brandonn gave me a ride home yesterday... I think he was mad. Which made me sad because I don't like him moping...but.. hey we aren't going out which is his own fault so I can ride home with Clapperton. Besides the ride home was perfectly innocent. So poo on you all. I wish I could go out with Adam though.. maybe this summer. It could be fun.

Alright I'm out of stuff to talk about.

*Reverie*